The whole idea of it makes me feel like I'm coming down with something, something worse than any stomach ache or the headaches I get from reading in bad light- a kind of measles of the spirit, a mumps of the psyche, a disfiguring chicken pox of the soul.
You tell me it is too early to be looking back, but that is because you have forgotten the perfect simplicity of being one and the beautiful complexity introduced by two. But I can lie on my bed and remember every digit. At four I was an Arabian wizard. I could make myself invisible by drinking a glass of milk a certain way. At seven I was a soldier, at nine a prince.
But now I am mostly at the window watching the late afternoon light. Back then it never fell so solemnly against the side of my tree house, and my bicycle never leaned against the garage as it does today, all the dark blue speed drained out of it.
This is the beginning of sadness, I say to myself, as I walk through the universe in my sneakers. It is time to say good-bye to my imaginary friends, time to turn the first big number.
It seems only yesterday I used to believe there was nothing under my skin but light. If you cut me I could shine. But now when I fall upon the sidewalks of life, I skin my knees. I bleed.
kristof's article in the nyt today regarding sudan and steps to make improvement in the situation is impressive. clear and relatively succinct and fewer than ten, this list makes it nearly impossible for bush to make excuses.
this morning my dad sent me a link to randy pausch's lecture. before that though, i had read a nyt article about his work, had seen a blurb about him on lifehacker, and had perused his website. sometimes insight and perspective arrives just when i need it most...
Sunday, April 6, 2008
joining the likes of andy goldsworthy, whom i adore, is jim denevan. beautiful, beautiful work.
i'm a book whore and a dog fanatic. a graduate of dartmouth college in '05, i recently returned home from a fellowship in india. i'm now in the midst of grad school and am trying to remember to take things day by day. i bite my nails. i tend to bake up a storm. i spill things, easily and often. i enjoy beauty products and finding bargains in unexpected places. i can wiggle my ears. i'm a sucker for stationery. i love things that make me laugh.